My thoughts.

I realize this, that in order to be happy you must always be happy with oneself. To receive positive energy in your life you must always radiate a positive attitude regardless of what else may have happened in the past.   You should always know your own self worth, before you put anyone else's desires into your life.  If you want to be content with yourself always think about yourself first and the others in your life without feeling your forgetting about yourself, or becoming consumed with another's life. Being happy with yourself  is a reward in itself. We all deserve to be happy with who we are as a person, and no one ever has the right to take that feeling away from you.  - You Yourself, Deserve Your Love And Affection, As Much As Anybody In The Entire Universe - Buddha

I really want to understand what I'm feeling inside right now. It's so twisted and messy, constantly having mood swings, letting myself get into harms way, never knowing what I actually want.  How do I feel normal? 

I will always love you but I'm beginning to realize it wasn't ment to be between us.  You play games, and  don't understand the consequences. You push me away and hurt me, yet I've stuck by you through it all, for years...  Now it's time to walk away from this, and see what's out there without the games.

I wish I knew why I loved you so much. You mean so much to me but you don't understand. How do I make you realize that you  make me a better version of myself. That when I'm with you,  I feel complete. I wish you I could express myself with the  correct words, without you walking out of my life. I know that I love you. But I don't know where you stand right now. You have someone else as well, but you always give off signs  that you want something more with me. I just want the truth </3

Why is it lately I feel like I keep getting the short end of the stick.  No matter what, whether it's about love, or even just genuinely caring  for someone, to continuing my education. Every time I start to feel like  one thing is working out, another crashes and burns, making me feel  the pain all over again. 

When you turn out the lights it's all the same darkness.