My thoughts.

Why is it so difficult to pick up the pieces and put your heart back together? Maybe it's because every guy likes to  play mind games with us...  They all say they care, and that they want to try, and sweet talk you into thinking about the future,  but their all just waiting around for another girl.  Sometimes you need to take a step back from all the illusions they create and realize you deserve a lot better.  Sometimes all you need is to walk away from the addiction. 

I really wish I could understand what was wrong with me myself rather having thoughts of going to a professional to talk too. Am I really that emotionally damaged. I know the nightmares keep coming back, the thoughts of what might have happened, but can I really blame anyone other then myself? 

My breathe was incomplete, my heart was incomplete, I was incomplete.  But now the moon is full, complete in the sky, and now with you I am complete. ---- I may feel that way, but you have someone else. Could I be losing the person I  thought could be "the one", the guy I could see my future with.  ---- I wish you knew how I really felt about you, and when you say things... I wish  you would think about how it effects me.  ---- I'll always care about you, no matter what may happen in the future. 

   Throughout life we have paths we need to choose,  maybe once I met you, I decided to choose the harder  path, with more bumps and scratches along the way.  Choosing to always continue no matter how tough it  gets, because I always felt at the end I would reach what  I want, see the light and feel true happiness. I thought you  were the one, and maybe you were, but I lost my chance, or  maybe you were just here to teach me something, because  no matter if I follow this path or not, there is always going  to be a barrier between us. 

She thought you were different, the type that would hold her close when she was scared,  the guy who would never leave when things got tough, someone she could always talk to,  trust with her heart, believe that the promises meant something. But once you got what  you wanted, you showed your true colours. If you were going to hurt her, why did you gain her trust? Why would you let her open her heart to you? Was it really all just a game?  Did you find it funny putting her in pain? That she deserved to feel this way for someone  like you...