My thoughts.

She thought you were different, the type that would hold her close when she was scared,  the guy who would never leave when things got tough, someone she could always talk to,  trust with her heart, believe that the promises meant something. But once you got what  you wanted, you showed your true colours. If you were going to hurt her, why did you gain her trust? Why would you let her open her heart to you? Was it really all just a game?  Did you find it funny putting her in pain? That she deserved to feel this way for someone  like you... 

Ugh. So why am I still allowing you to control my emotions from such a distance. 

Being alone isn't always bad, but sometimes when your alone you can only hear your thoughts,  the most inner subconscious of yourself. But what can I do? Give up or hold on? Is there  any way that this could just not hurt this much? There are so many thoughts running through my mind about you, how to understand this? why you are doing what you are? How can I know  anything if I can't talk to you myself. Everyone tells me you came into my life to teach me something,  it's to bad I wanted that lesson to go on longer then just this. I gave you my trust, my heart, and you betrayed that. You used it all against me. So what now? Being alone with my thoughts is all I can do.