Depending on someone through your life isn't worth it. No one will ever be there for you like you'll be there for yourself. No one else on the Earth will care about you more then you care for yourself.
I lay outside on cold pavement looking up at the dark night sky, hoping to see a shooting star. Close my eyes and wish upon the one star that could change my life, make my dreams come true. Find my one true love, in the crowd of six billion people. I wanna feel that constant love with no limits, have someone to count on through each step of my life. How do I find you? How do I know your the one? Will I feel it? or will I lose it and hopefully find it again years after, making a mistake. Is it really to much to ask for some happiness? Just for once one thing be mine and mine alone, without the risk of losing the one thing that means everything to me, accepts me for my imperfections, allowing myself to be myself. No secrets hidden beneath a wall put up between us.
IN THE END ARE THEY RIGHT? They say the people closest to you, are your family, your friends, they say these people care about you. DO THEY REALLY? OR JUST AN ILLUSION OF CARING? People make assumptions about the person you are, but are they even close? You know who you are, other people think they may know you, but they don't. They only see the person you want them to see, you can show them the real you, the deeper, meaningful you, or you show them the more shallow side of yourself, the superficial person who you pretend to be so that you can keep your barriers up, keep your heart protected from being broken, so you never have to feel that heart acing pain. DO PEOPLE SEE YOU AS THIS? My guess probably not because, they don't care to learn who you really are. They only judge you for what they may perceive. Maybe everyone hides the true selves even from ones own families. Not by choice but by the sur...
Sometimes you feel closure is only route you can take to get over someone... but what other options are out there? When the person you love so much, you would do anything they need from you, treat you like nothing unless they need something from your "relationship". Is it possible you can never truly be friends with someone you have had feelings for? Every time you look them in the eyes you see the future you once imagined and the horrid memories begin to fade... Perhaps your first love should be left in the past, with no "relationship" in the future. It is a hard to fathom letting go of that person without the closure you desire, yet they will not grant you, your one last desire from them. I suppose the only thing left to do is walk away and close that door for good start fresh, remember the pain and lessons' you have learned but grow as a person to become someone you are proud to be without them. Maybe that's what...
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